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gabbydwgOkay, so I really hate the new system at work. Yeah, we used to have to do everything in triplicate, but at least I knew everything was copasetic. I hate this haphazard way he has us doing everything now. It makes no sense to me, I have no way of checking my work, and if a mistake is made, we won't know about it until it's too late, what with the deadlines and everything. I hate that I'm basically being forced to lower my work standards just because his office is cramped and Tammy can't deal with all the extra paperwork, not to mention the techno-phobia held by Louise, Judy, and Ninny. Not only that, but the system just plain isn't working the way it's supposed to. How can it, when people forget to fill out the forms they're supposed to fill out? Even when they do, they put them in the wrong place, making them impossible to find. I am so frustrated by it all, I could scream.
That said, I really, really, really hate public speaking, even if it's just a few people. What does this have to do with the new system? Well, Louise wants me to bring it up at the next staff meeting and make sure the doctor listens to me. Hard to do. I speak slowly, and with lots of pauses in between thoughts. People are constantly interrupting me, not necessarily out of rudeness, but just because they think I'm done talking, when I'm not. I'm just not aggressive at all.
I'm anticipating much tension. The doctor hates being second-guessed, never answers questions directly, and takes half an hour to articulate a point that could have taken two minutes.
I just hate confrontations. I know I'm going to end up crying, even if it goes well.
I've gotten by very well the last four years just smiling and nodding, and doing things my way. But he's very much in love with this new system. And I fear he will turn on me, the way he turned on Michelle and Terri when they stood up to him. Granted, I didn't like Terri much either, and I see now why he fired Michelle, as well. And when it comes down to it, I know he regards me highly, as far as being a good worker and a smart person.
*sigh* Guess I'll spend Monday writing down every little thing I come across that's wrong. Sure can't depend on my memory. I always blank when asked for specifics.
*dreading Tuesday*
That said, I really, really, really hate public speaking, even if it's just a few people. What does this have to do with the new system? Well, Louise wants me to bring it up at the next staff meeting and make sure the doctor listens to me. Hard to do. I speak slowly, and with lots of pauses in between thoughts. People are constantly interrupting me, not necessarily out of rudeness, but just because they think I'm done talking, when I'm not. I'm just not aggressive at all.
I'm anticipating much tension. The doctor hates being second-guessed, never answers questions directly, and takes half an hour to articulate a point that could have taken two minutes.
I just hate confrontations. I know I'm going to end up crying, even if it goes well.
I've gotten by very well the last four years just smiling and nodding, and doing things my way. But he's very much in love with this new system. And I fear he will turn on me, the way he turned on Michelle and Terri when they stood up to him. Granted, I didn't like Terri much either, and I see now why he fired Michelle, as well. And when it comes down to it, I know he regards me highly, as far as being a good worker and a smart person.
*sigh* Guess I'll spend Monday writing down every little thing I come across that's wrong. Sure can't depend on my memory. I always blank when asked for specifics.
*dreading Tuesday*
