Trivializing the Momentous and Complicating the Obvious

For those of you not on Facebook, my cat, Samson, died on Sunday night. I'm doing okay, all things considered, but still missing him, and I wish I had taken more pictures of him in the short time I had him.

I'm trying very hard to stop myself from getting another kitten.

I just thought I should let you guys know, in case I do get another kitten later and you're all "WTF happened to Samson?"

My stress level has gone so far down since it's been just me and the two youngest girls, it's not even funny. By the end of this month, I will have my credit cards all paid off, and a new bed. :)

It's Saturday, I have the day off, and I'm having trouble figuring out what I want to do.

I have Netflix/TiVoed stuff that I could be watching -- except that my mom's doing paperwork in the living room, and Nicole's sleeping in my bedroom, and I don't have any headphones for the computer.

I have library books that I could be reading, but I don't really want to read on the couch, and I doubt there's enough light in my room. I'll probably end up doing this, though.

I could have breakfast -- haven't yet -- but I'm not really hungry, and there's not really anything to eat around the house, anyway, so why bother?

*sigh* This is the problem with free time for me now. I can't decide how to spend it.

I'm feeling really depressed right now. I don't really know why -- just, almost as soon as I got home from work today, there was just this sadness. I wish I knew why.

On Tuesday, I went to work and nobody was there. The store was dark, the doors were locked, and nobody was there. So I had to cancel all my lessons. Somebody finally showed up around 4:00, so I was able to get about three lessons in, out of eleven scheduled. So I might be feeling stressed from trying to get everybody re-scheduled. Except that I haven't really been thinking about it much.

Or it might be the ticket I got the other night for running a red light (stupid). I hate wasting money.

Or it might be because two of my siblings owe me about $200 each, and don't look like they'll be able to pay me back for awhile.

Or it could be that I didn't get enough sleep last night. Or the house is a mess and I don't want to be the one to clean it up again.

Or it might be that this movie I watched the other night just left me in a funk and I need to get over it. (Less Than Zero, with Robert Downey, Jr. and James Spader. They're not the leads, but they should have been, because the two kids playing the leads were just pathetic. And the movie was very disturbing, distressing, and depressing.)

Or it could be because my mom is talking about giving us girls the house when she moves to Michigan. I mean, it would be nice to have a house --- but I really don't want to have to take care of my sisters for the rest of my life. It would be one thing if I thought they were capable of taking care of themselves, but they have a history of taking advantage of me and taking me for granted. So this discussion makes me very nervous.

It's probably some combination of all those things. I've been really busy lately, and haven't had time to process. That's probably it. Yeah......

I really miss late-night chat sessions. :(

answers for the un-guessed quotes of the movie meme are as follows:

2. I'm afraid that one third of a gopher would only arouse my appetite without bedding it back down again. - O Brother, Where Art Thou?
3. Did I ever tell you that I used to read feet? - Godspell
4. How annoying, that they have to fight elections for their cause. The inconvenience! Having to get a majority. - Evita
11. Leave my elevator alone. - Blast from the Past

By the way, how does one go about pronouncing the word "meme"? In Doctor Who, it was pronounced as "meem" but I'm not sure that's correct.

1. Pick 15 of your favourite movies
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.

1. Round up the usual suspects! (Casablanca, guessed by katharhino)
2. I'm afraid that one third of a gopher would only arouse my appetite without bedding it back down again.
3. Did I ever tell you that I used to read feet?
4. How annoying, that they have to fight elections for their cause. The inconvenience! Having to get a majority.
5. He was always a rather stupidly optimistic man. I mean, I'm afraid it came as a great shock to him when he died, but he was found dead at home. (Clue, guessed by shemmelle)
6. I do not play this instrument so well as I would wish, but I have always presumed that to be my own fault, because I would not take the trouble of practicing. (Pride and Prejudice, guessed by p00tigger and katharhino)
7. I got it! Your daughter's not your daughter, and the money, that used to be the jewels, is now your underwear! (Oscar, guessed by caror)
8. Remove head from sphincter, then drive! (10 Things I Hate About You, guessed by bijoux)
9. I'm afraid that calling us Englishmen is like calling an ox a bull: he's thankful for the honor, but he'd much rather have restored what's rightfully his. (1776, guessed by p00tigger)
10. I can't think about that now. I'll think about that tomorrow. (Gone with the Wind, guessed by katharhino)
11. Leave my elevator alone.
12. No, I do not want to spend Christmas with Miss Granola Suicide and her Spawn. (About a Boy, guessed by leksa)
13. You are born into a family. You do not join them, like you do the Marines! (While You Were Sleeping, guessed by p00tigger)
14. I quote John Lennon, "I don't believe in The Beatles, I just believe in me." Good point there. After all, he was the walrus. I could be the walrus, I'd still have to bum rides off people. (Ferris Bueller's Day Off, guessed by jennlynnfs)
15. How do you shoot the devil in the back? What if you miss? (The Usual Suspects, guessed by jennlynnfs)

These are probably pretty easy. Most of them, anyway. But we'll see. :)

Proudest Moment: Replacing computer desk and cleaning my bedroom. Hooray!

New Movies Seen: Once, Raising Arizona, No Country For Old Men, and There Will Be Blood.

Hours Worked (Earning Money; does not include household chores): 30. Seemed like more. But I guess that explains how I had so much time to watch movies. Huh.

Hours Spent Practicing Piano: about 10, maybe?

Laundry Done, In Loads: 4

Books Read: None

Bills Paid: 2, car and car insurance

Number of Times Dined Out: 1

Tanks of Gas Bought: 1

That's all I can think of. I was going to do a "Happiest Moment," and more along those lines, but I couldn't remember enough specific moments. My short-term memory is really bad.

My current favorite song is At Least I'm Not Like All Those Other Old Guys, by Five Iron Frenzy. ( Lyrics under the cut )

Another one I like is "So Far, So Bad," also by Five Iron Frenzy ( Again with the lyrics under the cut )

Heehee!

I've been feeling really depressed this last week or so. Not so much that it affects every minute, but whenever I'm by myself, doing nothing..... or a lot of the time when I'm with my sisters. It's hard to keep myself from crying.

*sigh* This too shall pass.

I'm sick in a really gross, disgusting, leaky way.

I really want to read something, but I don't know what to read. Where do I start? So much reading to do, so little time. I always say I don't want to waste my time on a bad book, but I spend so much time wondering which books are good, I might as well be reading the bad books.